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Camino de Santiago

The “Sacred No”

One of the gifts of walking the Camino de Santiago, is the way it shaped and changed the pace of our lives during the 5 weeks of walking. Our long list of “to does” that we had before our walk, just disappeared largely. We established a very simple, basic rhythm to our life that repeated each day. We found that the pace of our life was “slowed down enough that we could catch up with ourselves and get our bearings” (Thomas Merton). We could just lean gently into the simplicity and rhythm of the walk. It was life giving and “restful” in a strange sense.

It seems we live in a culture, today, that encourages us to keep going until we are completely depleted. When someone asks us, how we are doing, we reply about how “busy we are”. Like is a badge of courage we wear. We don’t live in a culture that encourages us to take time to go away, to be apart, to rest.

“The rush and pressure of modern life are a form, perhaps the most common form, of its innate violence. To allow oneself to be carried away by a multitude of conflicting concerns, to surrender to too many demands, to commit oneself to too many projects, to want to help everyone in everything, is to succumb to violence.”

This quote by Thomas Merton was made about some of the people involved in peace activism. He thought their frenzy of activism neutralized their work for peace. It destroyed their inner capacity for peace. So, even the good they were trying to do was being thwarted because they were “destroying the inner root of wisdom which makes work fruitful.”

“Being constantly busy, damages our bodies and our spirits and our need for renewal. We seem to perpetuate this myth in our culture that we should always be available, that we should always be working. That our work is our identity. Therefore we can’t ever step back.” Christine Valters Paintner

The Camino taught me the value of being able to “get off the merry-go-round”, that blur of the life’s to-do’s that so readily overwhelm me. I came out of the Camino with a new perspective, I really appreciated the “inner peace” that came from just being not doing.

The Coronavirus pandemic has had a similar life changing effect on me when so many of our normal activities came to a grinding halt. Now as we are coming out of the pandemic and our “normal” life activities are ramping up, I am seeing once again the “lesson of the pandemic” to slow me down. I truly see the value again of rest and time away from the “violence” of busyness.

I used for the title of this blog, “The Sacred No”. The reason I did was to remind myself that I am going to fall right back into my old patterns of a packed full calendar of activities and “to do’s”, if I don’t have the courage to stand up and say, “no” occasionally. I have to get over “my fear of missing out” (FOMO – it is a real social anxiety out there today!) and use the “Sacred No”. In a sense, when we consciously make the choice to slow down by saying no to some of the activities, we are giving ourselves a “small sabbath”. A time to step back and rest into the present. I can speak from my experience, this has brought me more peace and well being in my life than I could ever have imagined!

My hope is that you are also able to find your “Sacred No” so you can find the time to slow down and catch up with yourself.

Shalom,

John

Photograph of the Month

Slow Down, Take Stock

This image was taken during a jeep ride in Colorado to Imogene Pass (13,114 ft). The quotes from Peter Maurin and Pope Francis seemed to fit perfectly with the image.

Making Room For Something New

The guidebook that we used for preparing for and walking the Camino is by John Brierly. It is subtitled, “A Practical and Mystical Manual for the Modern Day Pilgrim”. It contains practical advice and wisdom for both the outer and inner journey one makes in preparing for and walking the Camino de Santiago.

In the Introduction of the guide, John explains what he hopes those who walk the Camino find in their “Camino Journey”.

“That we might find a place to lay our weary head at the end of the day but also, and crucially, that we might feel supported and encouraged to dive into the mysteries of our individual soul awakenings, without which all journeying is essentially purposeless.”

The Camino can be a way for us to explore our individual “soul awakenings”. John Brierly mentions that his guidebook was “born out of a mid-life crisis and the perceived need for a time to reflect on the purpose and the direction of life.”

The “Camino experience” is a very good way to “wake us up” or “shake us up”. It seems to get us out of our “old ways of thinking and doing”. I suspect that many who walk the Camino find this to be true. It awoke in me a deep desire to being in nature more now that I was retired. The Camino also came at a critical inflection point in my life as had just become was a grandparent for the first time. It as a “soul awakening” moment.

By its very nature, when one decides to walk the Camino, there is inherently some closing off or ending of old ways to make room for something new. Just preparing to walk the Camino, the first challenge you face is recognizing you cannot carry much in your pack when you are walking for 5 weeks. This was a huge challenge for Terri and I. You had to say no to many things we would have like to take with us.

The whole Camino experience is about stripping down to the basics of life. Much of the “creature comforts” of life are left behind as you hit the trail. You have to say no to old ways if you want to experience what the Camino is going to teach you.

I came across this quote about making room for something new, that has some sage wisdom for us all:

“Yearning for a new way will not produce it. Only ending the old way can do that. You cannot hold onto the old all the while declaring that you want something new. The old will defy the new; the old will deny the new; the old will decry the new. There is only one way to bring in the new. You must make room for it. “ Neale Donald Walsch

I know for me, the times of my “soul awakenings” are often coincident with letting go of the old ways or things I am holding onto and welcoming the new into my life. The Coronavirus pandemic has had the same effect on me as the Camino, in that it stripped away so many of my “old ways” and “shook me up” into a new ways of thinking and doing.

I hope you also find ways to see the new as you make room for it by the ending of the old ways.

May blessings abound for you in the new!

John

Photograph of the Month

Tulips Stand Up and Shout

After missing the Skagit Tulip festival last year, we made it up there this year and it seems to me that the tulips are even more vibrant and beautiful than ever (I am wondering if the pandemic is heightening my senses).

I really liked this tulip image I captured this year. I seems to speak to me of hope for some reason, not sure why.

To Be A Beginner

“There are only three stages to this work:

To be a beginner,

to be more of a beginner,

to only be a beginner”

Gregory Mayers, Listen to the Desert

I titled this blog many years ago, “We Are All Pilgrims” and I think it has been a good metaphor for our human journeying. Not just the physical journeys we make to outward places (like the Camino de Santiago), but to the interior places of the heart, the new landscapes we are called to explore. I suspect that is why I liked the quote I am using for this blog entry. It speaks to the mindset of a pilgrim, that is that we are always on our human journey, never arrived.

I am discovering that the cycles and seasons of life provide us with ample opportunity to work on this life principal of “always being a beginner”.

Sometimes I have sought out a new adventure in my life. In his stage of my life, I find myself often ready and open to learn and grow in my knowledge and skills. I am advancing and glad to be a beginner as I learn more and more. The trick, though, is to maintain the mindset of a beginner and remain humble, avoiding the idea “that we have this all figured out”. This type of thinking feeds my ego and can drive me to thinking and acting like “I know it all”. You can be rest assured that is not the pilgrim’s path of humility.

The other path of life that I am finding is very challenging to maintain, is in the downward cycles of life. When something happens which we did not expect. It is often an unwelcome event, like what happened to the world with the Coronavirus pandemic or maybe a sudden illness or death. In these times, we find ourselves face to face with our fears. Yet, strangely it is in these unwanted times in our lives we are called to the work of “being a beginner again”. To open our hearts and minds to this new trajectory in our lives. It is an incredibly vulnerable place to be.

One of the losses Terri and I experienced was the loss our “Church”. Gathering together at our parish home at Holy Rosary Catholic church has been a huge part of our lives for almost 40 years. In addition, I sang in the choir and our beloved choir director was let go and this important part of my life ended. It was a disorienting and difficult time.

I discovered, though, once I took on the mindset of a beginner, my spiritual trajectory of my life took flight on a new pathway. New doors began to open as I explored the Franciscan Spirituality offered through the online community and courses at The Center for Action and Contemplation. I also discovered a wonderful online community at an Irish Monastery called Abbey of the Arts. It seems I have discovered an online Spiritual community right in the middle of the pandemic! In some strange way, I have found a home again.

My Spiritual journey is continuing and I am only a beginner.

Blessings,

John

Photograph of the Month

Stark and Swirling

I love this new image I created from a winter hike to Discovery Park in Seattle. These particular trees we so unique with the linear line pattern and stark look. I created the swirling background of some knots on an old dead and dried out log in Central Washington. The contrasting lines and curves are a great match and create a very interesting and intriguing image.

Pilgrim or Tourist

The Pilgrim Path (Burgos to Hornillas Del Camino)

“Is there a place for each of us,
where we no longer yearn to be elsewhere?
Where our work is to simply soften,
wait, and pay close attention?”

Christine Valter Paintner

No doubt about it, the pandemic has put the brakes on everyone’s travel plans. Terri and I had gotten used to multiple trips a year since I retired in 2014. We have had some wonderful vacations at home and abroad. But like everyone else it all came to a screeching halt with the Coronavirus pandemic!

This long “sabbath” from travel, has had an interesting effect on me. I think that is why the words I opened this blog with, from a poem called “St. Gobnait and the Place of Her Resurrection”, has had so much effect on me. Although I am looking forward to traveling again, I find I am not “yearning to be somewhere else” as result of this “travel rest period”. The pandemic, like our Camino walk, were times of rest and renewal in some sense. They both have taught me things about myself I am a a different person coming of out both experiences.

Mostly, I guess I am “just happy within my own skin”. I can sit still for long periods of time without wanting to be somewhere else. I love the experience of now, fully present and alive. Not looking too far ahead or dwelling on the past.

So, I am asking myself, when we begin to travel once more, will I be a tourist or a pilgrim? My plan is to stay a pilgrim. To savor and sip the travel experience, embracing each precious moment with heart open so that I might come home changed forever by the experience.

John

Photograph of the Month

Two Cormorant Tree

Here is an image I created when I captured these to Cormorants on a tree at the Ballard Locks. I used my imagination and some tools in my photography darkroom to make interesting final image.

Slowing Down

We live in an age of “efficiency” and “multi-tasking”. It seems it is all about how much we can get done or accomplished within a given time period. I sure felt the unrelenting pressure of way more work than I could ever accomplish, when I was working at Boeing. In my rush to accomplish as much as I could, it was very difficult to slow down and to be present to the moment.

One of the gifts of the Camino is it slows you down. The multi-tasking and urgency of getting things accomplished as efficiently as possible fades to the background. You find that your days are greatly simplified. It is as if time has slowed down and you can breath and be more present to the moment. You have time to absorb the beauty all around you.

Maybe that is why I am actually grateful, in some strange way, for this “Coronavirus slow down”. Like so many of us, we have been forced by the pandemic to limit so many of the activities we loved to do, like travel and spending time with family and friends. This “pandemic slow down” has been an awakening to how important it is to be fully present and awake to the moment.

To be awakened and aware without distraction is a beautiful thing.

“An awakening is necessary to reconnect us to our origins and one another.”
Barbara Holmes

I hope I can remember and live this more fully everyday, even after the “pandemic slow down” is over.

May Blessings abound,

John

Photograph of the Month

A Home In The Trees

The bird’s nest was photographed on a hike in Discovery Park in Seattle this past week. Here is some a short description on how I created this final image.

The first step in the process is a good capture of this nest in the tree. Then I focus on creating a very sharply detailed and contrasting image. The background was I created from an image of some old gnarly dried fungi. I thought it was a perfect compliment to the prickly nest look.

Connected

“I have never been separate from God, nor can I be, except in my mind” Richard Rohr

I wonder how many pilgrims that walk the Camino de Santiago, find after their long walk, their mind, body and soul are aligned and their connectedness with nature and other pilgrims has grown. I think that for me that was one of the benefits I did not really expect but definitely experienced from walking the Camino. Time walking in nature has some benefits we sometimes do not understand till we have experienced them.

This past year, I have been even more mindful and thoughtful during all my city and mountain hikes. I have tried to concentrate on experiencing every leaf, branch, root, tree, mushroom, wildflower as if for the first time. To savor and linger has been my mindset. To truly connect my mind, body and soul together with nature. I can tell you it has been truly a healing balm for me this pandemic year of isolation.

I read recently the Latin root of the word religion, is re-ligare, which is translated “to reconnect”. Now, this make sense to me. This indeed is what I believe happens as we dwell and savor our time in nature, we are “re-connecting” again to the source of life. That is why I loved the quote at the top of this blog. “I have never been separated from God (the source of life), nor can I be, except in my mind”. Unfortunately, it is hard to keep ourselves connected as we live in a world that can seem like it is pulling us apart. We can experience times where we feel totally disconnected from from within – mind, body and soul and with each other.

Could this be an illusion? I dare say that this quote is probably right. It is in our minds or mindset.

I say it is time to “get religion”, to re-connect by savoring our time in nature and with each other in love and solidarity.

May we all stay safe and connected!

John

Photograph of the Month

A Look Into Eternity

This is an image taken along the shore of the Moclips River right close to where the river enters the ocean. I took the image in 2018 and have continue to work on it over the years till it all came together recently in this final image.

P.S. The image at the top of this blog came during a hike to Esmeralda Basin in Central Washington in 2016. The tree and the swirling background from two images I captured that day.

Coronavirus Camino

“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart. And try to love the questions themselves.”

Rainer Maria Rilke

Now here is a quote for you! I decided to open with this quote as I am finding it so appropriate as the Coronavirus continues to ravage our country. I am finding it so hard to stay diligent and patient as we await the days we can return back to “normal”. I am also finding there are so many unanswered questions in my head. How much longer is this really going to be? I am tired of this and want it to end now. When will I get the vaccine? When will it be safe for us to gather indoors and hug again? How much longer will I need to wear a mask and socially distance? If I get the virus will there be room for me in a hospital?

Walking the Camino is all about living with the unanswered questions. Can we really do this? Will our bodies be able to endure this physical endurance test? Can we get to our destination today in time before all the accommodations are filled? Can we keep with the schedule we had planned? What will it feel like if we make it to the end? We had lots of questions unanswered until we finally finished the Camino walk.

We are on a similar journey this year was we walk the “Coronavirus Camino”. So much is unknown with the disorder that the Coronavirus created in our lives. We have all experienced losses, anxiety and confusion as this virus has disrupted our entire lives.

This whole year has been one big “I don’t know“. Unanswered questions. If you are like me, you probably don’t like unanswered questions. I find that I want to get the answer or figure some way to make it go away (ignore, blame, scapegoat are some of my favorites). Yet, maybe there is a better way to deal with the unanswered questions. Much like our Camino questions, maybe we simply need to hold the questions “in our hearts” and face the reality “I don’t know“.

We did not find out the answers to our questions on the Camino till we finished the walk. We simply trusted and kept walking. I would suggest that might not be a bad idea for us to consider as well for our “Coronavirus Camino”. Let’s try to “loving” the unanswered questions and trusting and walking till we get to the final destination, “life after the coronavirus“.

Stay safe and keep loving!

John

Photograph of the Month

Walking To Eternity

This is an image I captured this week during a hike in the snow up at Mt Baker Ski area with my good friend, Bob Maier. We experienced a very special moment together when at one point, the lighting, shadow and lines of the fresh snow were simply sublime and we were both transfigured by it. We both we silent and just took it all in. We both were simply one with all the universe at this time. Lovely, wish we could have stayed there forever.

P.S.

The image that is at the top of this post was captured during a hike to Whistle Lake near Anacortes. I belong to a photography sharing website called Unsplash and this image has been viewed by over two million people and download by almost 9,000 people. Unsplash is a copyright free stock photography website. It gives downloaders the right to “copy, modify, distribute and use the photos for free, including commercial purposes, without asking permission from or providing attribution to the photographer or Unsplash”. It does prohibit selling unaltered copies, including selling the photos as prints or printed on physical goods.

I have had one of my photographs used in a book and given credit. I mostly love doing it because I want my photography to be enjoyed by as many as possible. I really do not care about any of the credit. I know that might sound strange but “hey, that is the way I roll.”

Here is a link to my Unsplash photographs that have been accepted for distribution.

Unsplash – John’s Images

Our Common Ground

“For those of us who want to see democracy survive and thrive—and we are legion—the heart is where everything begins: that grounded place in each of us where we can overcome fear, rediscover that we are members of one another, and embrace the conflicts that threaten democracy as openings to new life for us and for our nation. . . . Parker Palmer

Have you ever noticed when you are hiking that when you meet someone on the trail they often will recognize you with a greeting and a friendly smile? They will sometimes even give you advice or warn you of some possible obstacles or dangers to look out for ahead on the trail.

During our Camino walk this was even more pronounced as you passed by other fellow pilgrims. There was a real connection felt we each other. Fellow pilgrims just loved sharing with each other the challenges that lay ahead for you or give you some great little tips that would assist you on your journey ahead.

Why are folks so friendly and helpful during the times I am hiking in nature or when I was walking the Camino?

I wonder if maybe it might be because we are sharing some “common ground” together? In the case of meeting other fellow hikers on the trail, could the common ground be our love of being in nature and how it seems to heal us and make us better? Maybe it might be our shared love of being outdoors and exercising? Maybe it is the sense of adventure that comes with hiking, what you might see when you hike this trail (wildlife or new vistas you have not seen before)?

The “common ground” with our fellow pilgrims on our Camino walk was likely due to the sharing of a common goal, walking the Camino where we literally were walking on the same path that so many, many fellow pilgrims have walked for hundreds of years! We also shared the hardships and joys as well of this walk and loved sharing it with the many pilgrims we met along the way.

So, this got me thinking about how very divided our United States is right now and how can we begin to see the “common ground” that we share together? As the quote at the beginning of this blog states, maybe we need to look into our hearts to overcome our fears of each other and realize we are all connected together.

It is challenging to look into “ones heart”, to take a critical look at ourselves. It takes a higher level of consciousness to seriously consider our biases.

“How can we learn to see, to see what’s really there, to see what our neighbor sees but that we’ve always missed, to help others see what we see, to open our eyes together and see what we’ve never seen, or even been able to see?” Brian McLaren

“It is our highest ethical calling to learn how to see.” Rabbi Hartman at the Hartman Institute in Jerusalem

I have recently found a new podcast, called “Learning How To See” that I am finding quite helpful in exploring the biases that can be present in us and in many cases we may not be aware of. We all have our “blind spots” that prevent us from truly seeing. It is only as we keep discussing, keep thinking, keep talking that we are able to recognize our “blind spots” and then perhaps move forward onto “common ground”.

I hope you might find time to listen to this new podcast and let me know what you think.

Blessings and all good,

John

Photograph of the Month

Del Campo Peak

As we enter fall and the first snows begin to fall on the mountains, I love to get up and capture some images of the fresh snow on the mountain peaks. The is Del Campo Peak, which I have always loved. It is such a beautiful rugged looking mountain!

It was one of my first true mountains I climbed. I was taking the Boeing Alpine Climbing course and this was one of the mountains we climbed.

Live yourself into a new way of thinking

“We don’t think yourself into a new way of living you live yourself into a new way of thinking.” Richard Rohr

The Camino is a experiential type of thing.

I read a number of books about the Camino and watched a couple of movies on the Camino in preparation for the walk. Yet, it was the experience of walking the Camino, that drew out of me the Camino’s true value and lessons. Walking the Camino, I came to a new way of thinking on life. It changed me.

If you have been following my blog for these past 6 years since we walked the Camino, you likely have got an idea for how the Camino changed me. Here are few important lessons I have learned and how my thinking has changed as a result.

  • Be present to the moment, use all your senses to soak it up. Stay in the moment as long as possible and be curious and keep an open mind and heart.
  • Get outside and walk in nature regularly. I am especially fond of walking in the forests. It is a healing balm for your body, mind and soul.
  • Human Being” is way more important that “Human Doing“. Avoid filling your days with constant activity and to do lists. Just being present and still is of true value.
  • Simplify, simplify, simplify. Less is more. It is a very freeing experience to move “downward” rather than “upward” in terms of possessions. The less we need to protect and prove.
  • Live with a heart filled with gratitude for everyone and everything.

There are so many other wonderful bits of wisdom I have learned from walking the Camino. The writing of this blog for the last 6 years has really helped to crystallize my thinking as well.

This experience has led me to want even more experiences like this. I will close this blog with one more thought on this idea of living into a new way of thinking.

“You think like the people you cocktail party with.” Richard Rohr

Oh, how easy it is to remain cozy and comfortable, surrounded by people who think just like you, vote just like you, worship just like you, use money just like you. We are all called to break free to live in larger circles of love. I have found that when I “change sides” by going to those who have very little, the poor, I have learned the most about life through this experience and my thinking has been changed. I highly recommend this!

I hope this blog today provided you with some inspiration to try and live your way into a new way of thinking!

Blessings and all grace abound,

John

Photograph of the Month

Tree Shadow Speaking

During this past week, I had a chance to go on a hike to Lake Ingalls in the Central Washington Cascade Mountains. I was monitoring the dark shadow being cast on Esmeralda Peak as we started up the trail. I was struck by the great contrast. When I saw the outline of this old tree shadow, I knew I had a great shot if I could position the shadow against the brightly lit Esmeralda Peak. I had to climb a bit off trail but I found the perfect alignment I had envisioned. Viola!

It seems to me this old tree was speaking to me of its past in the shadow it casts on Esmeralda!

Transforming Wounds

“There must be, and if we are honest, there always will be at least one situation in our lives that we cannot fix, control, explain, change, or even understand.” Richard Rohr

We are in such a “wounded state” these days, we are all suffering and wounded by the coronavirus pandemic, the social injustice protests and now the wildfires that have swept across the Western states. “We Cannot Breathe” seems to sum it up for us in 2020. We are suffocating and dying. We are all suffering losses and are wounded right now.

What do we do? Do we seek to blame, accuse and attack others? I know for me, when I am hurting, I almost immediately seek to blame someone. Who is responsible for my hurting? It is so easy for my ego to quickly identify the easy answer as to why this is happening to me.

“Whatever is not transformed is transmitted.”

This is one of my favorite quotes for it reminds me to see more clearly that if I am hurting and wounded, I must look deeper beyond the easy and quick ego satisfying explanations. I have learned that it seems only in my human suffering is where true transformation can begin.

One of the reasons folks give for walking the Camino de Santiago is, they just need to “clear their heads”, so they can think clearly again and maybe make some important life decisions. That is one of the beautiful things about walking the Camino, it gives one time to think and to dig deeper into their lives. Maybe they have suffered a loss of a loved one or a job and are trying to figure out how to work through this loss.

It is in embracing our “necessary suffering”, that seems to be programmed into our life journeys, that we are able to “break open the heart space” so we can experience a transformation. A change in our hearts and minds.

Here are some deeper truths I have learned through exploring my wounds and the wounds of our country.

The coronavirus pandemic has forced me into new patterns in my life. It has really slowed me down to a much more deliberate pace of life. It has greatly simplified our lives and shown us that we can save money if we are not always out eating out and traveling all the time. I have become aware of my deep connection to the “consumerism culture” of America. In some ways, it has made our lives a lot like the Camino walk, in the way that it has greatly simplified it and helped us focus on what is really important.

The death of George Floyd, exposed the our nations “great wound” of systemic racism. This got me to exploring my own lack of awareness of my “white privilege” and the role it has played in my life. In reading more about systemic racism, I am beginning to understand how it has robbed people of color of opportunities that I have enjoyed (great education, a great job and wealth through home ownership). I also now see, that we do indeed have a long road ahead of us, to repair the damage that has been done for so many years.

Not everything that is faced can be changed; but nothing can be changed until it is faced. —James Baldwin

You can not heal what you do not acknowledge. May these unprecedented times of loss and suffering, lead us all to open up our hearts to search what areas of our lives need to be transformed.

May grace abound in your life!

John

Photograph of the Month

Opening Our Hearts

This image is a composite of two images I captured and merged together. The heart shaped rock I found during a visit to Apache Junction, Arizona and the ragged hanging root on the side of a trail during hike to Fremont Lookout in Mt Rainier National Park.